The Authentic Artist
I have always been an artist. How I've felt about it has been a journey in itself. Seven years ago with a huge shift in my spiritual journey, my art and I merged together to bring an awareness that surpassed any previous meaning my art had. Part of this paving my way to my true north was the art of letting myself actually play and experiment with my materials. The rigid planning and expectations were gone, replaced by a well of freedom and I chose to dive right in. My muse at the time was Flora Bowley. To this day I look at her book on my shelf about Brave Intuitive Painting and feel a surge of gratitude that Flora was my first teacher, inviting me to let go and paint from the heart.
Many enjoyable hours were spent painting my heart and soul out in those first two years. I let out much emotion with a mix of illustration, mixed media and throwing paint at the canvas. Until I realised that where I felt the most at home was with creating something completely abstracted. It was like I was being pulled further into the spiral where all I could take with me was my intuition. I wanted my painting to be raw energy and to use the emotions that I felt about certain colours and their vibrations. Abstraction was where I felt a freedom that I wanted to explore, where I wanted to go. The more I heard people say "but what is it?" the more I wanted to create it. In perfect timing, the universe provided me with my next wonderful teacher, Nancy Hillis. After watching Nancy talk about her Artist Journey course, I knew instinctively it was for me. I signed up immediately and from that moment on, my painting became like the butterfly in the struggle to emerge from her cocoon.
This was new ground, a new way of understanding and feeling my painting. Part of what drew me to Nancy was her professional background in psychiatry, a large part of her teaching with art. This going deep into the psyche was right in alignment with my personal journey and world view. What I did not know as I excitedly began her course, was that everything I felt about art and how I could paint, would be absolutely turned upside down and inside out. My own artist journey into the unknown. While I learned about art principles like colour and composition, I also had to work through fears and blockages, the paradoxes to the absolute freedom and flow that I craved. I discovered more about myself through my art, the mirror it truly is. Like Alice, it took curiosity and I went down the rabbit hole into a wonderland to find my own path as an intuitive painter, the authentic and unique stamp of my own creativity. My voice, my expression.
I am deeply grateful for Nancy's way of teaching, for the lessons about myself I have had to learn over and over, painting after painting. The artist journey never ends.
What I feel now on this journey as an artist is my true self, how I give and share this authenticity through my art.
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