Back in the studio.....
I'm not a daily painter. I tried being that a few years ago when I thought artists who sold their work made art every day. I also thought that painting on a regular basis would make my work better or make me more brave or experimental. Thank goodness I got myself out of that box.
Yes, this daily practice is for some and their way in the art world, I see it, admire it and am amazed at their energy.
For me, the big "WHY I paint" sorted out a lot of angst and expectation that had travelled with me for a while when my work began to sell. Returning to the simple act of creating just for me, when it felt right and definitely not pleasing anyone else, was my path as an introverted artist. I'm honoured when someone else needs to hang my work in their space, the emotional connection of art is a beautiful thing.
I've always been an artist and I am not going anywhere better, I am already there when I paint. To listen to and accept what flows out, to sit with the bad paintings and feel the juice of the good ones. These days I just feel gratitude that I can paint, that I feel something other worldly in this act of creating. I've become a slower painter.
There is always something new to learn and find out about myself and there is plenty of time.
I think the thing I love the best about being an intuitive abstract painter is the sheer joy of not knowing what is going to happen next. Every time I make a mark, play with colours and just feel the mediums going onto the surface, it is always new. It is endless. It is the delight of seeing what you are feeling, but not quite how you may have expected it....